Overwhelmed

I know all of us have much to do. In fact, I think at some point every human being struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by life stresses. The idea of complete defeat or drowning by the tasks we face is daunting. I realized trying to be the perfect mom for M was unrealistic. The truth was just being a mom to an autistic child can feel overwhelming at times. I found faith has been incredibly important when I become overwhelmed with everything going on in my life. In honesty there have been many days when the waves of tears has overcome me. I felt myself drowning. In those moments given everything on my plate as tears roll down my face, I scream internally for my Creator to please help me…for I am overwhelmed! Believing has given me waves of peace by finding the stolen moments of joy with M. Yesterday, was a long difficult day.  Last night as I sat on the sofa, I started crying. M was having a meltdown contributed by no nap and long day at the hospital. In the mist of my crying and M meltdown, I started singing twinkle little star. After a few minutes, M joined me in singing. I took M in my arms and gave a deep pressure hug. I knew this would ease tension for M but in turn it helped me. We both needed each other comfort. In that moment M said “love you”. Yes, being M mom has helped me to be tougher, there’s been a lot of hardship along the way. I accepted that to be part of my life. Hence, M has taught me having tenacity does not mean avoiding being overwhelmed but being steadfast in the face of the overwhelming odds.

Simply an autism mom learning

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